Almost 6 years

Aloha oe, everyone.

I'm 13 days away from my moms anniversary. It's still the hardest pill to swallow. But I want to believe that she's here with me and that's always with me. This journey has not been an easy road to walk, but I do believe that in time the road gets easier. But even after 6 years, it's still a rough road.

So, my progress so far is because of my children. I've come this far because they're looking up to me. They are the reason for me still being here. It's hard knowing that in this journey I feel alone. I mean, I have my family surrounding me. My baby sister has the same loss as I have. But, still.. I feel alone.

I am sad that my mom isn't here. But I think I have come to terms. Have you ever seen the show Long Island Medium? My grandma,  the truest Christian, has told me to stop watching that kind of shows. It's the devil. And, I love her to pieces. But I can't help but feel like ma will always come through. Heheeh love you grandmama.

I can tell you now, I do go through my roller coaster - I miss her everyday. And, I'll forever see her as my best friend. But, I am okay.